Before, I felt the need to please everyone, at all times. It's good to make people happy, to bring joy to people's lives, but what's not right is becoming obsessed with it and forgetting about your own feelings. I guess that was me, but not any more. I've always felt like I needed to be somebody, to be known to others, be popular, but no, not any more. Everyone is different and unique. Everybody is beautiful in their own way. And I just want to be myself, I'm proud to be me. Me, the one filled with imperfections, flaws, and mistakes. I'm grateful for what I have. I don't need to be perfect. I'm proud to be me.

When I was small, I had lots of hopes and dreams, and as I grew older and older, one by one flew away. But that's okay, there will be a time where I'd get it all back, those lost hopes and dreams, and maybe even some new ones. It takes time to pick yourself up after falling, but you'll get there one day, you just have to be patient and believe in yourself. It's the same as having your heart broken, you'll pick up the pieces and let it heal through time, and one day, you'll feel happy again.

I'm a completely different person on the internet and in reality. I guess, I find it much easier to express my feelings into a computer screen, as the person/people that I talk to can't see my facial expression and I won't see theirs. I build myself up into what I feel is 'perfect' , and likeable. I build a wall to block out my imperfections. But sometimes, that's not the case. With people whom I am close to, and who knows me inside out, they'll know that they're talking to the real me. The me who they know is not perfect. A lot of people would say that I'm talkative, and I like to crack a few jokes here and there, but that's not really the case. I know I'm really really chatty on the internet, but when it comes to socialising outside my heated computer space, I'm just a shy , confidence-lacking, immature girl who is scared of being alone. Some people, who I've known for years, been with me through thick an thin, they'll know how noisy I can be. And annoying. Hehe. Well I guess it just depends on who I'm talking to really.

You see...I really don't have a clue why I'm posting this, nor have any idea why I actually wrote any of this. I guess it's just me ranting on again. Yeah, you'll see me rant a lot, and I mean it, A LOT. Anyway,  I'm trying my hardest to make my everyday filled with happiness, and to bring joy upon others too. I want to get rid of any hatred I have left inside of me, no matter what they did or said to me, I should forgive them. But that's another story :) I want to make my life beautiful, and to take my time to enjoy living my life to its fullest. I want to not only focus on my future, but not to forget about the me today. Because the me today is what is going to make the me tomorrow. I'm not expecting anyone to understand what you've just read, or to even waste their time reading this, but if you did, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Some people may think it's great, or it's just made up of stupid lies, but no matter what you think, thank you. Cause you took 5 minutes of your life just to read this when it could be spent on doing something else :)