DIYANA RAHIM

"To see a world in a grain of sand,
 And a heaven in a wild flower,
 Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
 And eternity in an hour."

"Auguries of Innocence" -William Blake

So today, I've decided to post a very different kind of post. (My ability to write properly has now fully gone.) You get what I mean. Right?

I'd like to wish a very awesome birthday to this very amazing friend of mine, who never fails to cheer me up. We don't talk as much as we used to, but still - she's here with me through thick and thin, through every rants and stories (and gossips ahaha) we shared, to our crushes, our past experiences and even to the cute you-know who. Oh yes, Mr. You-Know-Who...who has brought me so many memories in life (not.)

I miss you loads, you're one of the few I could depend on understanding how weird and awkward and random I am haha. You're different than most people I've met - you don't judge people and you accept them easily (I envy you for that). Remember our times in Blairvadach? Those were awesome times. I remember how you used to change your hair colour and how I loved it. You know me so well, that you can almost predict how I would do something in any given situation. I can trust you on anything that it scares me (just kidding haha). Stay smart (yes, you are! don't argue with me), stay awesome, stay beautiful!

Happy 18th gorgeous and I wish you all the best and success in everything you do! Don't change for anyone, I love you Vicky! x

He was like a deadly poison to her, yet she still fell for him. Even when she knew of this herself. His intelligence, added to his alluring looks, combined with the mysterious past he had...no one could resist this beauty. Not even her.

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"And only then, I knew the full weight of your words. You had not intended to leave her, but I. After making such promises, you, a man, did not make good of your vows. Where is your honour, Sire? It was all just a pretence, a charade, nothing more than just meaningless letters typed out like a script. Oh, but were you a Man after all?"

...

You brought her out of her darkness, the moment she saw you, she knew that she had to get you in some way or another. And thus, began the courting. She didn't notice that you had your eyes on her too, even with the wench by your side. You started approaching her, slowly, and she had gladly responded. Oh, but what a mistake for her that is!

...

She had locked out her heart for anyone to enter, but you had found the key easily. Too easily. But she was too blind to notice. You approached her, again. You talked her out of her strongly-built walls, reaching for her trust. She gave in. You confided in her, and in turn, she did to you. You found out about her weaknesses, and her fears. What had started slowly, had suddenly turned into something else.

...

"

"I need to free myself from this endless wake,
to escape this unrelenting throb
of heartache,
to rest in eternal peace."

{d.r}

Don't you hate it? When your life just suddenly takes a wrong turn, and you find yourself drowning in these depressing thoughts. The more you think, the more you feel, and sometimes you wish that everything would just be over.

I miss you, Pizza Hut AU2!

Wow. Has it been one awesome journey. I worked here for around 4 months and a bit, but I've made so many memories that it still seems a bit weird to think that it's all over now. Working here had its ups and downs, but doesn't life always? The bad memories loses compared to the mountain of great ones. The pay wasn't all that great, but the friends were.

At first, I didn't even want to work in a F&B store. I originally wanted to try a clothing store, or something else - one that doesn't involve me being a waitress. It was all a bit of a misunderstanding, but as soon as we came out of Pizza Hut that day, I had a job. I had to take responsibility as a new staff, even if it wasn't what I had in mind.

First day of work - I met the three managers. They were definitely different. The first impressions I had of them had totally changed as time moved on. One had even managed to annoy me so much - but I see him as a trusted friend more than just a manager. I liked how they treated the other staffs as equals, we can mess about with them and joke around without having to worry about anything.

I met 3 staffs there - 2 of which are like family to me now. Soon afterwards, some had left, some returned, other new staffs came, and another few had quit the job. One thing's for sure though, you'll meet plenty of new people there. They come and go, but you'll always end up keeping the friendship alive even when they're not there any more.

There was another new staff who had started working on the same day as me, who you will see pretty much of in the video. She's has the most open-no-filter-I-can-do-what-I-want-don't-mess-with-me attitude that you can find in anyone. And now, she's one of my closest friends.

The first month was horrible for me. I didn't have the most outgoing self-confident attitude out there, so I had found it hard to adapt. I even wanted to quit. It isn't as easy as everyone thinks - trust me. I used to feel very agitated whenever I am in a restaurant and something doesn't get served as I expect it to. However, I can't even seem to recall the exact point of when everything changed. I started liking the job more and more, and even found myself trying hard to compete in some of the mini-challenges they had. I found myself being chosen as a Service Hero a couple of times in the restaurant, and even getting a certificate for being a 'hero' throughout the country. After leaving my part-time job in August, my friend and I were chosen to present the new products along with Wak Doyok and Elfira Loy.

They were all good memories, but the bests ones are meeting my for-life friends. It shows that even if you feel that you won't like something, even if it's something you are very much against - sometimes it won't stay that way forever. You might even find yourself liking them - like me. Whatever it is, give it a chance and don't give up.

Feelings to be shared,
Love to be cherished,
Life to live with,
Memories to be made.
Places to be visited,
Stories to be written,
Stories to be lived,
Together.
Forever.
And a day.

-You.

Always.

I've just came back from another holiday, and  this time it's from a place called Kedah. Kedah is located waaaay up north of Malaysia. (go and look it up if you don't know!) I enjoyed my stay in Terengganu, but this time it was definitely more enjoyable (and not just because it was longer). I didn't take a lot of pictures this time, was too lazy to bring my dslr and my phone had problems. But, I managed a few selfies here and there, and had the chance to use my brand new fish-eye clip lens! /and yes, I will most definitely talk about this more later on

We also went and visited Perlis, where my mum was born. Padang Besar, for those who know it, is the place - I repeat THE place to go if you want to get some good bargains (but you gotta know how to haggle). It literally translates to 'BIG FIELD', and is the border between the Malaysia and Thailand.


Kedah is one of my favourite places in Malaysia to visit, as one of my closest cousins lives there. Like I said, I barely took any pictures apart from some selfies of the wedding and of my cousins - but other than that, my pictures were crap. So I apologise for hurting your eyes.

The journey from Kuala Lumpur to Kedah took us around 8 hours, but that was with us deliberately going slow and taking the long route. That couldn't be said the same for the journey back though, since it took us around 11 hours (yes, you heard me right) to get back.

On a happier note, I'd like to wish everyone a Happy Independence Day to all Malaysian citizens!
Sighs, I know. It isn't the 31st. I wrote this a long way back but only managed to post it now. You may sigh along with me now.

I've actually written half of this post on the 26th, but like the idiot I am, I managed to delete everything and good old blogger here autosaved it at the wrong time. And poof! Everything's gone. Sighs.

So I apologise in advance if I seem like wanting to choke myself half to death while writing this.

10 Sept - Went to a driving licence class yesterday, oh boy was it boring! I think I may or may not have fell asleep somewhere during it, I just couldn't concentrate. It was far too cold in that class (or do all Malaysians just REALLY love the cold that they didn't feel the need to pee or drop dead to hypothermia?) that I had started to shake uncontrollably. Damn I wish they had told us to bring a jumper or something.

Today - Anyway, to update - I just finished my computer test today, and guess what? I PASSED! Yes I did. You had to get 42/50 to pass, and I got 48. So yeah, that's my stress gone. I'm pretty bored right now, you can probably tell from the way I type on this. Sighs.

After the independence referendum last night, I hope that this is not the end for all of the supporters. (I'm proud of you, Glasgow!) Getting a different result than what you chose doesn't mean that it is all over, because it isn't. There will still be plenty of changes happening, and we must all make sure that they are done in the support of Scotland.

Whether you voted for a YES or a NO, you voted for what you thought was best for Scotland. A YES or a NO, change is still necessary, and change will take place. I've seen the passion and enthusiasm from this campaign, and I'm proud of it. We must take what we can and make this country the greatest it can be. It is time to get your voices heard! Keep fighting.

First and mostly, I would like to make it clear that I am not Scottish, I won't be voting in the #Indyref this 18th, and I don't live in Scotland any more. But this is my opinion. If you agree or not, that is up to you.



I'm not gonna go all politics in this post, because well, I would just be spouting rubbish and I don't want that. I was born in Malaysia, schooled in Glasgow and now I am waiting for the opportunity to continue my studies back in Scotland. I want to let you see this independence referendum in an 18 year old's perspective, living halfway across the world.

My reasoning isn't something that I have taken upon lightly. It's not just me going "oh I would say yes because I felt like it". When asked by someone what I would vote for if I was able to - a month ago I would have said that I didn't have a clue. I might have even said no thanks. Actually, I was inclined towards Better Together previously, but now that has all changed. Now that I think about it, the only question that had kept me from saying yes was that:

What if we can't? But what if we can...and we do? Anyone can come up with what ifs. What if my phone ends up breaking in the next few weeks? What if I ended up partying it up in Bangkok in the next 2 days? But nobody, nobody would be able to answer that. This is the thing that will always come with change : fear. Fear of what will happen, of taking the next step. Fear of the unknown. No one can predict the future. It is up to us to change it, to make it the future we want. It is up to us to be independent, to make our own decisions. Take the risk. Take responsibility for your own country. This is what the referendum is all about.

Everyone wants the best for their own country, and I believe this independence could be it for Scotland. At the moment, Scotland is being controlled by a parliament based in London. They are making the decisions for us. So how, I ask all Scottish people, how will you get your voice heard? Do you not want the opportunity to be given the right to decide? Don't you want to make your own decisions or do you want to be babysat for the rest of your lives? Yes, some of the decisions are made by us, but most are still being made down in London.


After having lived in Scotland for around 8 years, and having seen some of the ways in which the communities live over there, I've seen some of the ways in which Scotland, and the UK can improve on. Do you believe that they have our best interests at heart? Are they really thinking of what is best for Scotland, or what is best for the UK? Do they really understand the needs of Scottish people?

Now living further away from Glasgow, when I see and hear my peers talking about the UK, most don't even realise where Scotland is. When we say the UK, they say London, they say England. Wales. Even Ireland. But where's Scotland? I've had enough of being asked where Scotland is, of having to open up Google map and show them where exactly Scotland is in the UK.

I know Scotland has it's own attraction, has it's own culture, it's own tradition, so why must Scotland sit back and hide behind others? Why can't they show the whole world how great Scotland is? Living there had shown me how great a country Scotland can be. The attitude of those living in Scotland, their system, their "everyone deserves a chance to be heard" - those are what had made me proud of even having the chance to live in Scotland, even if it was just for a little while. Being independent will allow Scottish people just that. Scotland won't have to be silenced, to be invisible. Scotland will have the chance to shine.

Everyone has their own reasons to go for or against independence. As an individual growing up, I want what is best for me, and for the future generation. I want to be able to live somewhere where I can provide the best for my family and later on, my own children. Scotland might be one of the richest countries in the world, but that won't matter to any of Scottish people, to any of the ones living in poverty in Scotland unless they can use the wealth to help everyone.

The future Scotland should have a say about its own economy, to continue to provide equal chances for everyone. We want equality, Scotland wants equality, Scotland wants their free education to continue, they want more job opportunities, they don't want their free health prescriptions from NHS to be taken away and threatened to be privatised.

In high school, I saw how some of my pals couldn't afford to buy their own lunch, much less bring one from their own homes. I've seen the state of some of their houses, living and breathing with rot and mould because they couldn't afford a better housing. They couldn't afford new clothes. They couldn't get jobs, couldn't get money, and couldn't basically get anything. And yet, I've seen the richer side of Scotland, living in big houses, never having to worry about being able to afford anything. They live side by side, a fine line of separation. There shouldn't be a separation, there shouldn't be a lower and a higher living classes. Poverty and unemployment. Those living in poverty can't afford to have the same level of education, and therefore can't afford to get a good job. Not having a job leads to unemployment, and this results in poverty. It's an endless cycle. I don't want us to be asked to choose between having a shelter above our heads or food in our hands. I don't want to have to choose between mould or meal.

With just over 2 weeks left before the referendum, I really hope that Scotland will decide the best for themselves. It's not just about picking up the pen and making a mark on the paper, it's about choosing to make your own decision and having others making it for you. For those who are voting no, and think that we are better together, surely these problems won't be there. Surely Scotland would have already been Better Together in this case. I want to see a Scotland heading in a clearer future, and in the direction it deserves. But that's my opinion. What would be your choice?

i'm back with my old habit.


stupid crying.
stupid depression.
stupid stupid stupid.

You're mine. Mine. Mine. Mine.


I don't like sharing.

Smiling is the best medicine.

Should probably start to stop being in love now. Right.