DIYANA RAHIM

She wished she didn't have the ability to store any emotions any more.

She feels bad, for herself and that person. 

She didn't regret the decision that the person chose, 

but she just feels really bad and out of place now.

{d.r.}

Finding something hard to let go is just your mind trying to tell yourself that the thing/person was once really important to you. 

That's all.

If it was meant to be, 

then it will be,

if it wasn't,  

then it won't be.

{d.r.}

Hah. Funny how everyone starts to remember me now. Like I somehow exist now?

I changed a lot, didn't think I would, but I did. 

Maybe not changed the way some might want me to, 

but still - can't deny the change. 

Maybe not my improved self yet, 

but changed.

But I'm still me. 

And always will be me.

Remember what you went through, and don't put yourself through it again.

She smiles, maybe it was the first ever time that she realises just how far she had gotten, and how long it had been. She gave up a long time ago, but kept on moving, slowly and slowly moving forward. She still cries at those memories, just like she did in class, in front of her teachers, and alone in her room. But that just showed what she had doubted before - she thought she had lied to herself, but really she had stayed through to herself during that time. The more pain you feel when you lose something, the more real/true it was.

Being hurt doesn't mean that you can't move forward. Memories, good or bad, will help you to take those steps forward. Give it time, give it a chance.

Thank you xo